Once this cleared up and I realized that I was not going to be overwhelmed with astonishment I began to slowly piece together what exactly it was that I was feeling. At first all I knew was that I had the overwhelming sense that this was somehow a "religious experience" although I had very little coherent sentences within my thoughts.
As time went on however I slowly realized that my usually familiar and well-defined concept of "I", "self", or "me" was no longer attributed to a separate ego and it's internal thought stream as it is throughout normal sober living.
Instead, it had become attributed to my internally stored model of reality in its entirety and therefore all of space and time. It felt that "I" had simply forgotten this due to the inherent nature of the human form that this part of me had manifested itself into and the way in which my perspective has been drastically shaped by the surrounding society.
The concept of a culturally ingrained and vaguely defined sense of self-hood that "I" had been raised into believing was revealed to be nothing more than an illusory symbol or approximation of words.
In simpler terms, the true self beyond everyday illusion was revealed as something not confined to its ego and the image it has created of itself through interactions with other people, but the entire universe as a whole. The sentences " We are all it " and " I designed it this way myself " looped through my thought stream over and over again.
It was revealed to me through an innate revelation that the reason I am living this life, with this extremely specific geographic location, friends, loved ones, life and plot is not because of sheer chance or coincidence as I had previously thought but because I had designed it all this way myself.
I had always existed throughout all times, I had created the universe which was myself and everything within it from the very beginning, nothing was left to simple chance and every aspect of this cosmic plot had been carefully planned out in advanced by the very thing which it was. In a single moment I realized and felt with a huge sense of genuine emotion that every last one of my personal insecurities which comprised my particular retarded tragic back story was a deliberate and important plot element which a great attractor was pulling the stuff of this reality into.
It somehow became clear that although my ego associated these things with negative attachments, they were simply contrast to states of positivity and therefore, at a higher level, could only be viewed as harmonious order within a greater system which I felt to be truly perfect in every single way. As this was happening I remained completely silent, occasionally sighing or quietly weeping tears of sheer joy into a blanket.
Every now and then, however, I would regularly move to drink water and smoke more weed which my friends would periodically pass to me. When I moved to perform these actions they had a completely different feeling attributed to them in comparison to that of every day sober living in a way that was profound but extremely difficult to describe adequately. Instead of feeling that I was a central and separate ego rearranging the external environment around itself, I felt that the universe was simply a self-arranging autonomous process of continuously shifting energy transfers which comprised the greater whole with unified, interdependent sub-components that acted upon each other mutually.
The bottle I was drinking from was just as much me as the person drinking it; it moved itself just as much as my body moved it, and my friends were simply manifestations of myself talking to itself.
This perspective was overwhelming and sustained itself for what must have been at least an hour or two. I laid there completely unresponsive to my friends but listening to the music and conversation whilst visualizing, and feeling everything which they were saying with incredible detail through high levels of conceptual thinking. Just weigh out a dose, say 5 to 8 grams of Mimosa root powder, put it into a jar, use about to mls of room temp water, put the lid on and shake pretty well periodically throughout the day and let it sit overnight.
Next day filter the liquid through a coffee filter, and either evaporate the liquid in a pyrex dish in front of a fan for a residue that can be scraped up and encapsulated, or use the liquid as a tea. Normal Threaded. The Nexian. Thank you for your help. Thank you maranello wrote: Is this your first time?
Hello maranel im smoking DMT for months. I think im ready for ayahuasca. Hey Shamens thank you for great advice. So bassically what i got; just put my mimosa hostilis root bark powder to cold water and filter it later drink it. Views Read View source View history. Yolo Donate. Donate Contact us Guidelines Recent changes Open source. Network YouTube Good vibes. Ayahuasca cooking in the Loreto region of Peru. Disclaimer : This guide is provided for informational and educational purposes only.
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